Season 3 Episode 1
"The Wound That Wrote the Dream"
Before the dream, there was a moment. Not the inspirational kind. The quiet kind. The kind that happened in a classroom, or a living room, or a car ride home — the moment something cracked open inside you and you reached for creativity the way other kids reach for a blanket. The moment you learned that expression was the one place you felt like yourself.
That moment didn't just birth the dream. It also planted the fear.
In the Season 3 premiere, Ashley Monique Menard opens the inner healing season by going back to the beginning — not the polished origin story you tell at networking events, but the real one. The one with texture and weight and a specific person's face attached to it.
Drawing on the narrative identity research of psychologist Dan McAdams — who found that the most resilient people are those who can find redemptive meaning in their hardest chapters — and the groundbreaking neuroscience of Dr. Bessel van der Kolk on how early fear gets wired into the nervous system, this episode asks the question most creatives spend their entire careers running from: When did you first learn it wasn't safe to want this?
This is where Season 3 starts. Not at the surface. At the root.
In this episode:
Why the dream and the fear almost always share the same origin
How early emotional experiences get neurologically wired — and what that means for your creative blocks today
The difference between the story you tell about your life and the story that is actually running it
The one question Ashley wants you to sit with before anything else this season
📚 Referenced this episode: The Body Keeps the Score — Bessel van der Kolk | McAdams, D.P. (2001) Narrative Identity Research | Bowlby's Attachment Theory | The ACEs Study — Felitti et al.
Season 3 Ep. 2
Mckenna & Lily
I wasn't looking for a podcast moment.
I was walking through Washington Square Park on a regular Tuesday afternoon when I heard two strangers say something so honest it stopped me completely. Their names are McKenna and Lily. They had never heard of this podcast. They weren't trying to be profound.
They just said out loud the thing most creatives never admit — that their own work gives them the ick. That they post something real, something that took courage to make, and then immediately want to disappear. Not because of the comments. Not because of the algorithm.
Because of themselves.
That is where Season 3 begins.
For more on Effing your fears check out Season 3, Ashley Monique Menard opens the inner healing season by going back to the place where the dream and the fear were born in the same moment — and asking the question most creatives spend their entire careers running from: when did you first learn it wasn't safe to want this?
This episode, we focused on who inspires, what is the ick and what's cringe?
👭Guests: Special thanks to Mckenna and Lily for joining the podcast.💭 Listener reflection questions: effyourfearspodcast.com📲 Follow the show: @theeffyourfearspodcast
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Season 2 Podcasts are here!
I am back with another season filled with incredible stories about creatives you see on TV, Stage, Podcasts & Movies. And you guessed it… we are talking about how they got from point a to point b and how they deal with fear. Also, special segments of me learning more about the world. I went to Lafayette La to see how King Cakes were made.
